4th of November 2011

原来，我还是那么的在乎。。
我还是放不下。。
看到你那么开心，我不知道，自己应该开心还是伤心。。
说过，你开心就好，可是，心好痛。。。
顿时没了方向感
顿时没了动力去做任何事。。
心里只有难过，流泪。。。
眼泪一直想出来，可是刻意地忍着。。。
因为告诉过自己，不要再为了你的事流泪。。
要替你开心。。。可是。。。可是。。
心痛的感觉，是真的。。真真实实地痛着。。。。。。:'''[[[[[

23/9/11

心情很矛盾。。
有時候，覺得自己很潇洒，不能拥有，只要你开心就好
但，很多時候，其實很想念你。。
我真的很想念你。。
以后的我们，会是怎样的关系。。
明年还有phuket trip..到那时候，我还喜欢着你吗？？
现在的我，其实想好好把喜欢你的感觉收好在心里。。
只想喜欢你，能吗？
只想念着你，可以吗？？
刚刚我连正眼都不敢看你。。
可是，我又很想念你看我的眼神。。。
haizz...
princess...管家没了你，超lifeless的。。。
好想知道，你过得好不好
好想知道，你开心吗
好想能够和以前一样，每天都能和你一起吃东西，买东西。。
你知道吗，自从感情疏远后，我没有一餐吃得好。。。
我很想约你去吃东西，可是，我不懂得怎样和你说话。。。
怎么搞成这样。。。是我的问题吗？？
怎么会这样。。。。。。怎么会。。。。。。T.T....

我想你了。

babi...听到我说话吗？？

我想你了。。

每天压抑着自己的心情，每天控制自己少点联络你

可是，怎么我又想你了~~

很辛苦。。。

当我独自一人时，脑海里出现的，还是你。。

真的很想，你能够像之前一样跟我说话。。

真的很想，我们一起去mydin买材料准备晚餐。。

是我让自己不放下，还是放不下。。

想念当时，你看我的眼神

想念当时，我在你心中存有位子的时候。。

我想你。。

awesome preaching by Pastor KongHee

i'm felt very thankful and grateful..

thx for Pastor KongHee from CHC s'pore..

his preaching was so easy to understand and awesome..

finally...i get to understand what is faith..

i go out with 100% faith toward GOD...

i believe he will heal me from in to out....

and he really do!!

i can felt that my injured ankle became more comfortable while i walk..

i can felt that my heart is on fire again~~

i found back my heart toward GOD..

i felt so touch..that Father God never leave me~~

"WEAKNESS IS NOT COME FROM GOD"

recently, i lost my heart...

i donno who am i..i donno what i suppose to do..

i donno what i live for~

i don't understand...y GOD wants me to get all these stupid life..

but 2day, i believe that..GOD never give bad things to us..

he already prepared everything for us..

he just wait us to accept all the things tat he prepared..

Father GOD, i felt thankful that i can know u..

i want always follow your step..

i want always listen to you..

pls lead my life..

pls hold my hand...

pls be always be with me..

++NEW VISION & NEW DREAM++

i pray for my heart will never cold down again

and always ON FIRE!!!

i want to come out from the comfort zone..

READY FOR CHANGING MY LIFE!!!

放，还是不放？

view了你的profile...

看到你给他留了言

心里突然又难受了起来。。

其实，我是选择不放手，所以才那么痛苦。。

我不想，就这样没了。。

那么难得喜欢上了，为什么就这样没了。。

以前见一个喜欢一个的我，不知去了哪里。。

现在心里，怎么一直只有你的存在。。

其实，最近我都睡不好。。

每一次的睡觉，都会梦到你。。

而每一次的起身，都会感到很失落。。

我不想这样。。。我不想这样。。。

我很想你。。。。。。。。

机会？

今天和你信息，一直告诉自己，不可以再踏下去。。
每一封信息，每一个字，每一句语气，甚至每一次心跳，
都经过三思再三思。。压抑再压抑。。
你说到，“we have to right??”
这句话....你是带着怎样的心情跟我说的？
我告诉了你，"not really..is depends on you.."
可是你就转开话题了~
你转开话题，是为了什么？
在乎，还是不在乎，其实，我很想知道。。。
可是，问了，又怎样。。
我想，你的答案，始终给不了我安慰。。。。
princess..我..是想你的。。

其实，我是想你的。。。

虽然说，才短短两三天
对我来说，好像很久似的。。
好像很久，没见到你了。。
也好像很久，没和你聊天了。。
慢慢地，期待你的信息的心情，一天一天地减少
渐渐的，希望能够看到你的心情，也慢慢的消失

今天，有意无意间，让我发觉你的班在我的隔壁。。
其实，我还是傻傻地在外面看了你一阵子。
我才发觉，我很久没好好的看你。。
为什么，要我不在乎，我才觉得你肯和我说话。。
当收到你主动信息我的时候，我是多么的开心。。
可是我不能在回复当中显现我的喜乐，也不能表示其实我还很在乎你
你说你看到我，如果不在乎，我是不会信息对方，你是和我一样吗？
你知道吗，刻意不在乎，是多么痛苦的事
一定要坚强，是多么难受的事。
可是我知道，我必须这样做。。
放不下，舍不得，也得离开，也得忘记。。

傻瓜，其实..........我还想你。。。。

转变~~

很烦列~~
到底买不买~~
讲来讲去，都是钱作怪~~~
没钱，真是气死了~
钱不是万能，不过没钱就万万不能~~~真是气死人。。。
haizz.....

新生活。。

刚才看着熟睡的你，有一种，不懂怎么形容的感觉。。

突然告诉自己，一定要充实自己

突然告诉自己，自己一定要成功

突然告诉自己，要振作，要努力，让自己有能力照顾你。。

我不知道，我还有没有能力，让你喜欢回我。。

我也不知道，我会不会继续喜欢你。。

可是，在这一刻，我知道，自己很在乎你。。。

前度。。

刚看了一部戏，戏名是"前度"
戏里的女主角，有你的影子。。
爱情，到底是怎么一回事？
喜欢来就来，喜欢走就走。。
想念，牵着你的手。。
想念，抱着你的感觉。
想念，吻着你的时刻。。
想念，你的一切。。。

寂寞。。

又是个没有意义的一天。。

我要的，到底是什么？

生活，怎么可以那么地无聊。。

就算她在身边，可是，心还是空的。。

她和男友的关系，明显地，已经好转了。。

而我和她的关系，显明地，也告一段落了。。。

怎么，眼睛出现了泪光。。。

为什么，心痛的感觉，又来到我的生活中。。。

去年六月，有晓艺

今年八月，有洁雯

很难受......为什么，让我喜欢上，不属于我的人。。

为什么。。。

我想要的，只是真心对我的人，真的那么难？

我很想前进，可是，我的脚，很重。。

踏不出那一步，所以...就留在原地，无助地流泪。。。

生活，是怎样的一回事？

为什么，我会觉得生活毫无意义？？
为什么，我们需要过生活？？
生活，是怎样的一回事？？
我不明白，为什么，很多成功人士，他们都说，自己从小就抱着希望和目标的生活
可是，为什么，我那么的无助，那么的没希望？
为什么，我看不到前途，看不到未来？？
到底，我追求的，是什么？？
我需要的，又是什么？？

怎么，我好像是没有灵魂的空壳？？？
我....不想这样。。。

hope you get well soon....

hmm...what happen to u...
y u headache...eyes swollen..body feeling weak???
hmm....how should i do...hmm...what happen...
ish....geram..............
hope u get well soon...........

怎么了。。

y u will said..u feel abandoned???
what's wrong??
anything happen to u???
hmm...i have no right to ask u about that...
but...i'm still worry about u....
hmmmmm......
u will be alright....don't u....
u got his love..he got yours too......
it's time for me to wake up from dream.........
:'[....
i...i just felt so hurt.........
hurt so bad...........

幸福。。

今天，我妈为我买了新床，新被当，总共RM2250...
其实，我妈是很疼我的。。。
虽然我妈不是喜欢走街的人，
所以从小就很少和她一起去走街。。
可是想当年，当我说想买个body glove书包(不是很实用的)，
六十(算是很贵了)，
她一话不说地说"要就买吧"。
我还记得，当时的我都吓到我妈会那么爽快。。
还有一次，我想买个收音机，
当时的我其实只要求一个几十块的收音机罢了，
可是当我和妈去到电器店时，
我妈直接带我去看品质较好的收音机，
最后买了一个很帅气的收音机，RM300++。。我当时又感动了一次。。
今年，我21岁生日，要求她送我一架DSLR，
虽然她说，"实用吗"..可是还是给我两千去买了。。
现在，姐买屋子，因为需要装修先，所以先买一张床。
我的房间没那么大工程，所以就先买给我。。
为了让我睡得舒服，买了个RM1750的床和床架给我，
不只如此，还买了两套床单，和棉被，值RM500...
其实，我是个幸福的小孩。。
比上不足，比下有余。。
人，真的需要学会知足，才会过得幸福。。=]

八月十三号。

轮到我要回去了。。
不知道，新学期，会过得怎样。。。
全...回到原点吗？
回到独自一个人的我。。
回到只有工作和上课的我。。
回到寂寞的我。。。:'[
我不想这样。。。
我一定要过得好好的。。。。
一定要。。。。。。。。

八月十二号。

她回来subang了。。
笨蛋的她，出去没带围巾，出到外面下大雨，还淋到雨。。
过后又去冷到半死的地方。。
真担心她会着凉。。。。
明知自己容易sinus，又不好好照顾自己。。。。
真是急死我了。。。。。。
haiz.......我真不知道，该怎样好好照顾她。。。
该怎样确保她健健康康的。。。
她是个不听话的公主，不爱早睡，不爱准时吃东西。
叫她穿外套，就是偏偏不听。。。

你说你不明白，自己有什么将好，为什么我要关心你。
我倒想问回你，他有什么好？为什么你喜欢他？
喜欢一个人，是没有理由的。。
你和我之间，我已经看不到希望了。
当你说，对不起。
当你说，你当然希望能够带他回去和家人吃饭。
当你说，你离不开他。
你说的每一个小细节，我都记在心里。。。。
我知道，你只当我是朋友，你不想我受伤。
我是知道的。。只是...我要的，不只是朋友。。
现在..我只想看到你幸福，我只想看到你健康。。
就算...自己是不开心的，可是我知道，不开心的日子，会过去的。。。

sorry..

今天的心情，很沉闷。。
一晚没睡，精神欠佳。头重重，有点不舒服了。
感谢你的绝情，你的不理不睬，正是我想要得到的。。
只有这样，我才能放下。
可能你觉得这样很幼稚，因为我也这样觉得，
可是，这是让我能接受事实的办法。。
觉得自己好没用，每一次，都为了感情的事，搞得人不像人，鬼不像鬼的。
我知道自己没尽力，没尽力做到最好。
自己明知潇洒点，至少走得有尊严点，
可是，就偏偏选择颓废的走。
现在的我，在你眼中，是个怎样的人？
还是，你根本就不在乎了。。
我就是这样，每一次都活在过去，一直不肯接受事实。。
他说得对，我笨，我瞎。。
我会没事的，只需要点时间。。。。

哭后，就没事吗？

以为自己能胜过
可是，怎么现在在流泪
心很痛，是自己想太多，还是，你真的不在乎
应该，不是自己想太多。。
希望，自己能快点遇到一个真正爱我的人，我也爱她的人。。

hmm...

今天的心情，怎么那么平静？？

没有错的话，她应该是和他出去。。

怎么，我那么平静？？

不是不在乎，而是...开始醒了吧。。

最后，是怎样，听天由命吧。。

世界上，应该会有一个人，在等着我去爱她。。

是不是现在的她，让时间证明吧。。

现在的我，真的把她放在心上了。。

peaceful day..

今天过得蛮平静的
很开心，可以和她一起睡午觉，还要是在Webcam=]
傻了，这样都好开心一场。。
hmm....原来看戏，时间过得那么快。。
其实，不是很有心情看，因为虽然在看戏，心里念着的还是她。。
就这样，又过了一天。。
现在那个傻瓜，在追看着连续剧 - laughing gor，不肯睡觉。。
真拿她没办法。。
晚安。。

what should i do..

夜深了。。心情平复了。。。

可是，烦恼的事，还在脑海里。。

她，值不值得？？是看自己吧。。

如果最后，她的心会走向我，当然值得。。

可是如果没有，喜欢她，还值得吗？

问问自己的心，到底想怎样。。

自己想看到的，是她开开心心的生活，对吗？

自己想看到的，是她健健康康的活着，对吗？

hmm...你应该好好安置自己的心，不要再过火了。。

闹僵了，是你想看的吗？不是。

再说，对方知道吗？就算知道，对方在乎吗？？

别傻了。。学着不求回报地爱她吧。。

你说她值得，她就值得。。

princess...i just..fall for u...

i hate this feeling......

我能不能，停止一秒的去想你。。
到底能不能，把你从我记忆里拿掉？？？
我很辛苦。。真的很辛苦。。。。
你的没做什么，反而让我心情很烦躁。。。。
为什么，你就不能直率跟我说你不喜欢我
为什么，你要说你喜欢我？？？！！
喜欢，可是就如此。。算什么？？？
我。。。我很想。。。。把你给忘了。。。
因为。。我真的...就崩溃了。。。。。。。

i just want your love.....(- -.)..

在感情上，我是很敏感的人。。
你的一举一动，都会深深地记在我心里。。
小小的动作，就能轻易的伤害了我。。
我知道。。我不是你要的人。。。
我知道。。是自己白痴。。明知是个洞，都要踩下去。。。
可是，有谁能够了解，我真的在乎了。
有谁能够了解，我已经爱上了。。
有谁能够了解，我放不下。。
如果可以，我希望自己从没注意过你。。
如果可以，我希望自己从没认识过你。。
如果可以，我希望自己没喜欢上你。。
如果可以，我希望自己能够忘了爱上你的感觉。。。。

可是，我办不到。。。
LKM...我的心，已经在乎你了。。
我..我不想的。。。。I'm Sorry........T.T...........

++BLESS++

我非常感谢我的朋友，

在我需要帮助时，牺牲睡眠，牺牲时间，牺牲工作，来帮助我。

在我很无助，彷徨时，来安慰我，帮我解决问题。

原谅我的胆小，原谅我的无知，原谅我的担心。

在我心里，有说不完的感激。

你们都很疼我，照顾我，教导我。

我知道，很多时候，我不分轻重，

把一些事情看得太重，忽略了友情，

可是你们还是不离不弃，在我伤心难过时，陪着我，让我哭。。

虽然我的速度有点慢，但你们都希望看到我成长。。>p<

我很感恩，因为有你们。

我很感恩，我还活着。

谢谢你们。。^.^

杨宗纬 - 那个男人

有个男人爱着你

用心爱着你

那个男人爱着你

彻底爱着你

他情愿变成影子

守护着你跟随着你

那个男人爱着你

心却在哭泣

还需要多久　多长　多伤

你才会听见他没说的话

坚强像谎言一样

不过是一种伪装

他只希望有个机会能被你爱上

还需要多久　多长　多渴望

你才会走向他

贴在他的身旁

微笑像谎言一样

是最起码的假装

眼泪只能躲藏

那个男人爱着你

忘记了自己

从此他小心翼翼

静静等待爱情

他情愿选择相信

为了你不言不语

那个男人爱着你

伤埋在回忆

无论要　多久　多长　多伤

他还是爱着你　一如往常

就好像一个傻瓜

对着那空气说话

他会不会有个机会能被你爱上

还需要多久 多长 多渴望

你再回头想他

贴在他的身旁

微笑像谎言一样

是最起码的假装

眼泪只能躲藏

那个男人就是我

你知道吗

还是知道却假装不知道吗

问到沙哑

你也不会回答

23rd of June 2011

phew...new house..just installed UNIFI!!!!

wao!!!cool!!!i start to love the place i live now..(coz got unifi!!XD)

everything..will be settle down soon..right??'

u noe wat u wan..u had decided...

and i..have to go on my life again~~

waiting for right person..come in my life~~

=]

but..hmm...

i still miss u.

22nd of June 2011

:)
everything will start with a smile.
wao..JAN till now...i update my blog again..
and every time i update my blog..
sure lots things happen...confirm its not happy things..:)
hmm..
new semester...new environment...new target...
but...all is not in control....
study...2 subjects, one still fine...but another donno wat he teach..
environment..is i moved to klang jor..but still not used to it have to travel so far...
new target...which is so complicated...but...everything will be end soon...right??

haizz....wats wrong with me????
wat had happen????
i aso donno........
i just hope....i can settle down my life As Soon As Possible...
and...hope she is happy.....

17,18,19-JAN-11

17th
working in the morning..
and i thought im working to closing..
but...
im not..
therefore im very free...
start to watch taiwan drama..
shit..when i start watch drama..
i sure dint sleep aso wan to finish it as soon as possible..
this time i die....
don wan say much..
2day was drama day for me..^^
continue drama..~~

18th

im not enough sleep on 17th coz i watched drama till around 6am..

den i cant concentrate on micro cls..

is my third time to retake this micro..

but i dint control myself...

haizz...

cant like tat la ilex lo...

u must be more hardworking than others..

den u just can get wat you want....

be strong....

u can do it... : ]

19th

2day was a boring day..

late for quantitative cls...(think to ponteng somemore>.<)

after tat went shaun's house with yancy..

and stay there for all my day...

watch stupid movie..

felt sleepy...

went back college for my sis tuition fees...

den ate at B1..

went back again..

around 7pm went to usj 1 bak kut teh with..

sis...yancy...yion..vic and bok..although i dint eat coz still full..

but now im hungry aredi...shit..

haha..

now come back room...and donno wat to do..

next morning have to work..

i think..should say good nite to the world^^

2011...aredi past 19 days...^^
actually just now i saw a scene..
which i felt a little bit sad..
but..hope everything is fine~
hope everyone is happy for their life..
i felt happy..when everyone is happy
.XD.

14,15,16-JAN-11

14th was a boring and sleepy day..
i was wake up around 10:30am..den watching pps..
and organization behavior cls was on 2:30pm..walao..
after watched pps i felt sleepy but have to go cls..
took a bath den go for cls..
this semester i got 3 days morning cls except Friday...
is noon cls..
noon cls is really sleepy period```T.T.......
i try my best to concentrate but it fail...
i felt sleepy in cls and cant concentrate...T.T...
we ended cls on 5pm..there was a good thing
because the timetable was change to 12pm-3pm start from next week
its better than 2:30pm...haha..
worked at nite...felt lazy..but also have to WORK...
luckily it was a busy friday..haha..
i have been long time nvr busy in starbuck..
felt excited when i have a lots of drink to make
and must be fast!!!haha~~turn here turn there..
jump here jump there..
customers stay until last minute jz wanna to leave=="
we finished our work and leaved starbuck around 1:30am...
came back..bath..on9 a while(actually until 5am..haha)den sleep..
plan to no sleep coz the next day i do opening..
scare cant wake up..
but at last slept for 2 hours..haha..

15th was a tired day.
first..coz im not enough sleep..hehe
den wake up in the morning went to work..
coz its a saturday morning..
so there was not much customer..(everyone wan to sleepXD)
and im too bored made me slept at BOH(Back Of House)
felt happy coz i can SLEEP~~~~~~~wohoo~~~~
there was no middle partner
therefore i have to work till 7:30am-4:30pm(8 hours+1 hour OT)..
but..coz it was too busy..i cant even leave there..
work work work...
i ended my job at 5:30pm..
16th was my sister's convo..but we haven prepare the flower for her..
go find the nearest flower shop and get half dozen daisy flower for her..haha
and 2day suppose date with xiang hui at 4pm..
but coz of work den extend to 5pm..
finally we meet up around 6:30pm...
haha...so PUNCTUAL~~~la la la~~^^
i knew Xiang Hui almost 10 years aredi...
she was a active person when i knew her^^
and she was take good care of me~~
i cant forgot she is the one who talk to me when im anti-social..haha
tats y i appreciated her for my whole life time~~
after have dinner with her..den came back home on9 again...
2am - bed.

16th is my sister BIG day~~^^
its her convo in diploma at Segi University Colleges Kota Damansara~~^^
finally...she almost finish her study journey..
coz she is taking degree now..
when i saw the graduated students...
i felt like i must graduate with jess they all...
coz i same batch with them...
i don wan leave me outT.T......
i still have lots of subject have to complete..
but i really worry bout i cant handle itT.T...
PHEW~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
its ok..my mom told me..
graduate on 2013 nvm..
the important is i can study hard and get a good result...not FAIL=='
i WISH to and i HAVE to also...

after finish all the things..
sister bringing us to celeste shop coz her shop wanna clear stock
my mom change and try...change and try...
finally she bought 5 shirt~~^^
i also slept at sofa there..hehe..
reached subang was around 4:30pm..
mom asked me to have a rest coz nite i got work but i DIN'T..XP
i watched my idol's video..she is so cute^^
i am super duper sleepy now..
and i have to go for bed..
2moro i opening again==
MONEY MONEY MONEY...
i fight for you^^
good nite world......

13-JAN-11

ytd nite..chat with wan er at msn till morning..

walao..slept few hours only

luckily can wake up for cls..

haha..

went business law 2 cls..

luckily my grade din drop..phew...

try my best to understand wat lecturer said...

although some i cant understand..

after that moral cls..walao...

i think we had to listen his story for 4 months...

but still ok la....

can learn from his life..hahaXD

3pm ngam ngam..dismissed cls..

went sushi king at summit with iris..haha~~

she treat me makan...haha~~XD

after eat..we aso went back nuh..

she went back sleep..

den i came back watch movie again..haha

i thought 2nite got cell group..

but its not..

den i follow nic..chee wei..yion..shaun..yancy went leisure mall meet jess for "Great Day"

haha!!

its quite nice..jz ending a bit......haha~~

i am so sleepy now......

ending with GREAT DAY...^^

good nite world..

12-JAN-11

this morning i attended quantitative cls which is Mr. Lee cls..

so worry coz he don wan sign for my form to let me enter this cls coz its full..

but luckily he allowed coz if really no computer can use i bring my laptop la..

haha~~

after cls nth to do..

went for subway with jojo..bok..staci..haha~~

super full..until dinner aso haven hungry..

i think coz of this tats y subway can made ppl slim down..haha

went back home after lunch..

watch hong kong drama..

watch one movie..

jz around 3:30pm..

and suddenly miss my idol "zhang yun jing"!!

haha!!den go youtube...hehe..had a happy hours with watching ah jing's youtube..

she is so CUTE and HANDSOME and COOL!!!

haha!!

ah jing is my strength~~

i learned one thing from her..

which is we must not give up for our dream..

and we have to fight for our dream...^^

den work at sbux at 7pm..had headache..

but have to work

coz i wan to work hard for my GOAL!!^^

finally im home and bath aredi...

haha..now wanna watch drama again den go for sleep..haha~~good nite~~

10,11-JAN-11

10th
result came out..
my micro failed AGAIN..
i felt helpless..
and don't know how to control my feeling..
i felt sad and sorry to my mom..
i cried......
told my leader phoebe..
she called me and pray for me..
what i care is my mom..
what i care is y i so stupid cant pass my subject...
is a second time i failed this subject and i have to retake again
now i only hope Segi won't charge me retake fee
its cost RM1200!!!
i hope i can skip for the fee.......
pls dont realize it....

11th
2day went to college and find ms.linda
she said my mark is lost quite lot and she cant help me...
and suppose i registered for CRM
but i attend micro cls again coz i have to retake...
i told myself...no matter how hard....
i have to pass my subjects...
no matter how...i WANT TO graduate..
i really want to...

God...i pray for my study...
please help me..
please lead me..
i really want to graduate..
i wan to fulfilled my mom's hope which is we get a degree..
what i can do for her is to study hard and wear that mortarboard
what she wants to see is just that..
is only that.....
i believe in you..i believe that..
you will give me more than i want..
in jesus's name i pray..Amen.

8,9-JAN-11

8th
wake up in the morning...go see room with sis again..
and went for breakfast with sis at usj..
after that went back home to clean living room:(
quite lot things i took back seremban or throw~
and i drove back seremban around 1pm..haha!
finally..im home~~but my bro went out aredi..
coz 8th was his birthday!!!haha!!
and tat nite my best frenz were celebrating my belated birthday at "Hawaii"
haha!!
it was a nice day~and i really long time din see them~
they become more beautiful aredi^^
3 of them got bf and can felt that they really love their bf^^
happy for them^^
but they facing family problem and i cant help them:(
just hope they dont get hurt..hope they have a happy life..tats enough for me~~

9th
2day i went BAHAU to find my mom..
i really miss her so much...
and wanna stay beside her every single minutes
but i cant...T.T
while im getting become an adult...
she are getting older and older..
every time when i have to leave her to come back subang for study..
i always feel sad and don't wan to leave...
i can felt that she really had a heavy responsible toward us....
she still have to work very hard for few years
she cant stop although she are super tired....
im felt guilty about i dint do well on wat i suppose to do...

mom...u must take good care on yourself..
i still got 2 years to finish my study and turn me to take care of you..
thx for everything mom...
thx for everything u gave me....
I LOVE YOU...

7-JAN-10

ytd nite when i working..

tat stupid house owner called me

asked me move all my thing go to the back

don put anything at HIS living room!!

What The Hell!!

he really spoiled my mood!!!

the living room is SUPER BIG AND EMPTY!!

HE IS NOT LIVING HERE BUT HE TALK SO MUCH!!

WALAO!!

his daughter's piano customer come see his house meh!!!

i din put messy aso!!

aredi try my best put at side aredi still talk so much!!

2day some more move one of my thing go behind!!!

walao!!he donno his house smelly ah!!

still put my hanger behind!!my jacket sure smelly all the day!!

GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

jz go find other room to let at usj 2 with sister~~

hope can find a better place to stay!!!!

stay at his stupid house sure one day i will heart attack by him!!

Grrrrr!!!

just come back from cell group
nit to set a correct goal for 2011~

6-JAN-11

ytd slept around 5:30am..

this morning woke up around 8:10am coz have to go for survey..

its a raining day!!!!

took LRT from kelana jaya to bang wangi (kah yan teach me the direction^^)..

den walk to tat builiding..suppose reach on 10:30am but reached there 9:30am.

haha!!i'm a PUNCTUAL person~la la la~~

went capital square mall for subway breakfast set..

finished on 10:10am..den walk back to company..

while reading newspaper they told me tat survey start on 11am..=.=

nvm..for $$, I WAIT..haha..

survey for around 1 hour neh!!walao..

at first not comfortable, coz one to one interview survey.. 

but last just do myself..talk wat i wan..haha!

at first thought is RM120..but when he pass me the envelope...wao!!

RM150!!haha!!!super happy!!coz i settle my redang's air ticket!!^^

although is a raining day..but still a good day^^

and came back subang meet chelsie..jess..shaun..nic and yancy for lunch^^

suppose go SS15 eat..but at last decided eat at summit coz they having movie^^

happy thing again..i get my salary on november while i work at taylor lakeside espresso bar~~haha!!

suppose get RM130 only..again!!the boss gave me RM150!!haha!!

have to start saving for bangkok trip~~^^

felt wanna sleep now coz not enough sleep..

and 7pm-1am working at starbucks taipan^^

today is my 6th great day of 2011^^

5-JAN-11

hehe!!its my 21 yrs old birthday~~
finally..im live for 21 yrs in this world..
wohoo~~excited~~haha!

2day i had a great day~~a memorable day^^
4th jan wait for 5th jan 12am..
at first expect got a lot msg..but hor!!NO!!
all leave birthday wish at FACEBOOK!!!walao!!haha
i like every wish and reply comment..till 3am..i just wanna sleep
coz i don wan next day be panda~~haha

den woke up at 5th 10:30am~
facebook..asking got anyone wanna date me be4 6pm..
haha..yancy date me go pyramid for movie..
but i don wan my birthday sit in cinema..haha..
so i said better go out walk walk..
ok we deal for it~haha~~bath..prepared..den we out..
reached pyramid go for breadfast+lunch
yancy treat me!!!haha!!
and aso have a free cut hair from X-Cut JEJE^^
den we walk walk..
i wanna buy something for my mom coz she borned me^^
wanna buy a present for my bro coz his birthday on 8th^^
den walk walk...suddenly have an idea buy mask for mom..
den walk walk again...got sale..2 shirt for RM99.90 at "KITCHEN"
bought a shirt for bro's present(first time buy present for him)..
den another for myself..
haha~~i thought i'm stopping buying things coz i have no $$~
suddenly saw a bag tat i really wan to buy..
yancy and chelsie suggest buy it for my present..
and will gv me a RM88 angpaw too~~haha~
deal with it~~i had a new bag for my 21 yrs old birthday^^
super happy~~

we had birthday dinner at "SUMMER" steamboat at sunway~^^
1. chelsie,
2.yancy,
3.jess,
4.cally,
5.pei fern,
6.chean ting,
7.victor,
8.nicholas,
9.shaun,
10.joan,
11.kah yan,
12.jojo,
13.abu,
14.yion,
15.raymond

16.MOM
17.SISTER
18.BROTHER
19.celeste
20.seheel
21.ME!!!!!!
hahaha!!!now i just realized...total attendance aso 21!!haha!!
i first time had 2 cakes(some more from same shop but different ppl bought) for my 21 yrs old^^
i first time present mom a present on my 21 yrs old^^
i first time present bro for his birthday present on my 21 yrs old^^
hehe!!!~~~~i really happy and had a GREAT GREAT day for my birthday^^

my present:
1. Nikon D3100 from mom^^
2. an ang paw from sister (RM100 neh)^^
3. my idol's book from celeste and seheel^^
4. necklaces from E32-church family^^
5. free hair cut from X-Cut JEJE^^
6. bag, necklace and ang paw from my college frenz^^
7. cakes from celeste, seheel, and college frenz^^

haha..but of course i hope get more than tat nah^^
donno still got belated present anot??haha~~
hope so.hehe~~

its a wonderful day~~
everyone is be with me^^
everyone is healthy~~^^
everyone still here^^

3,4-JAN-11

yer...sad nia..

ytd din write blog...coz the internet slow...T.T

but nvm...haha..

my birthday is coming!!!!!

wat i done these 2 days ah??

ytd morning work till 3:30pm..den go gaint buy body shampoo..

(think for so long to decide buy which brand)

come back counting how much ppl come for steamboat..

hehe..get SUMMER steamboat number from chelsie..but din call..haha

and the stupid line made me cant on9...

11pm something aredi sleep...

den 2day neh..work in the morning till 2pm..

coz work 6.5 hours den i can get a employee meal

i took muffin..plan for dinner

but at last i went street cafe at SS15 with yancy and sis..haha

confirmed ppl den call book steamboat and neway!!hehe~~

be4 went for dinner..my sister asked for clean tat dirty cupboard 

coz we aso cant on9 coz raining..

we cleaned tat for 2 hours...T.T..damn tired and hungry..haha..

jz came back from dinner only..can consider supper too..

haha..

still got 30 minutes!!!!haha!!

felt happy and waiting for my birthday!!

who will wish me first neh??hehe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE, BAO BAO!!

hehe~~~

2-JAN-2011

it's a 2nd day of 2011

TIME!!!how can so fast??

wohoo! my mood still in excited for 2011

i aso donno y..haha~~

wat i done 2day??

slept till 10++

facebook and watch 2011 taiwan countdown show but super lack..

went pyramid change the cacat earphone at mini toon 

but still change the some problem earphone..

bought 3 "catch up" T-shirt for NEW YEAR!!hehe^^

had breadfast+lunch with nicholas~~

den came back home continue my countdown show..

ltr will go vickie's dad's shop eat with Phoebe(cell group leader)

haha~~den come back i think sleep noh..

coz 2moro got work in the morning~~

WOHHO!!!OMG..my mood is so excited!!

hope everyday aso have this mood~~haha~~

ytd actually had happy things happen but i din blog coz too tired..haha

i went usj 2 buy chicken rice..i saw boss and her daughter look a bit pek ceh..

but hor..when the boss asked me whether wan chicken/duck rice

and when her daughter pass me the chicken rice..

both of them had a friendly smile~~haha

they made my day~~^^

and ytd was 1-1-11!!

i had a surprise birthday celebration in advance from my cell group at papa john pyramid^^

i really felt touch and happy coz this is first time they celebrate my birthday for me^^

and hor..at first i din realize coz they keep telling me must come ytd service~~

i really thought coz is xin ru(one of my cg member who went NS 2day) farewell~

but i really felt weird y they keep wan to make sure i will go..haha~~

i guessed wan to celebrate for me..

but i din think much coz i scare they dont..den i will felt sad!!haha~~

and ytd my "aunt" came~~walao..made me not feeling well and i forgot my birthday coming

haha~at last i really get surprise when my beloved leader holding the cake come inside^^hehe~~

really felt happy^^haha~~

THX God brought me to this church..and put me in this cell group..

i really love this cell group so much~~^^

1-JAN-2011

HO HO HO~~HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

wao~~i felt so happy and excited!!

2011..is my year of 21 yrs old^^

countdown at sunway~seen a beautiful firework..

2011 is here now!!

i met phoebe..xin ru..wan er and zeon~haha

within one hour i met 4 frenz from different group~haha

2011 will be a new year~new life~

GAMBATTE noh~~^^

must do my best to live happily everyday^^

must change to a better life^^

cant wait to face a new challenges in 2011~

first challenge is.........-make my face look nice!!

walao yeh...coz ytd din sleep(watch drama)...my face full of pimples!!!!

beh tahan...haha~~

last..wish u all have a wonderful life^^